I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste. You make it so hard for breathing. When I close my eyes and drift of you, I think of you and everything's okay.
You came into my life and i thought hey, you know, this could be something. Everything you do and the words you say, you know that it all takes my breath away, and now, I'm left with nothing.

No matter how busy you are, you should always find time for the person you're interested or in love with.

everyone hides themselves at least some of the time. sometimes you bury that part of yourself so deeply that you have to be reminded its there at all. and sometimes you just want to forget that part of yourself altogether.

So I've been smoking for many years now. I've been telling myself that I've to quit and its already like, 9 years now. YES. 9 fucking years since I've picked this bad habit. I tried to cut down on the intake but it just goes back to its original amount in the end.
Bought this pack of Nicorrete gum to try. Its supposed to make me not feel like smoking and in the end, I still bought a new pack. I guess I finally know why I can't stop. It's the feeling that I want the most. I could fuck care about the nicotine its about the heat whenever I inhale into my throat. That rough feeling when I inhale and exhale. Sadly, there is no such substitute for that feeling or I might be able to curb my urges long ago.
Anyway, I'll still continue to try chewing the gum and maybe try out that nicotine patch. If it works wonders like its supposed to be, hopefully my next post is that I've truly outgrown my addiction.

Hopefully I'll have the will power.

And then there was Team Building Week- though hellweek is hellweek however they wanna call it, seriously- something one can probably never truly understand nor empathise with except by going through it. I’m pretty certain that we all have our own fair share of memories which will still be remembered ten, twenty years down the road  for the simple reason that we’re never gonna do what we did ever again. I don’t think I’ll ever find myself literally asleep while running a 22km sundown marathon or while paddling a boat. And 79 men in a two-cubicle toilet? Not to mention a changing parade with our birthday suit? Or being soaked in 2 degrees Celsius water for 2 minutes from the collar bone down? That’s why people say that naval divers are crazy people- you have to be absolutely screwed up to even be able to conceive such ideas. But come to think of it, it’s not that we’re crackheads, really, it’s just that our tolerance level for shit-taking is pretty darn high thanks to TBW. And trust me when I say that some of you fellas have already made the closest friendships you’re ever gonna make in this life. Because try as
we may, I’m afraid others may never be able to fully comprehend the pain we went through, the sacrifices we made and the joys we shared like how the guy beside you does.

Been a very relax week. Participated in 35th Batch's Teambuilding Week aka TBW aka Hellweek as an Assisting Instructor (AI). Life was so good! Had to seperate our batch into 3 shifts (Easy, Hard and Moderate shifts) to help the Instructors ''Goon" them.
I took Easy shift which was from 11pm-7am. Long night yes but we get to sleep and slack the rest of the day off! Oh yes, 16 hours of own time. Friggin good deal and now i dread next week because we have to go through OGA. Argh.
Its not like we'll be activated to go other countries to stop riots or recover other Singaporeans that are stuck in the riots. That being said, what we were told was that we're training to save any Singaporean who are stuck in another countries riots but in actual fact its just to save those who are powerful and have a strong political stand in Singapore. The way SAF/MINDEF create stories to make themselves sound good. TSK.

Anyway back to the main topic..
All along, I thought I would be a devil and "Jib" them during their hellweek but i couldn't find it in myself to be so bad. So I decided to become an angel for them. Gave them sweets, energy gel and all the what not. Even helped them out during their Sandbaby evolution and their Casavac night evolution by carrying their sandbags. I swear, been so long since I last carried sandbags. HEAVY! Though I think I helped them out too much but oh well.
Frankly speaking, I don't see the importance of hellweek. Sure, its to push and test your body to the limits, but at the cost of what? Having a high probability of sustaining a lifelong injury or opening healed wounds that took so long to fix. Though, it IS true that going through hellweek makes you different from other units. Oh well.

Though personally I think only a few instead of all 58 of them should pass out because they didn't put up but regardless, a hellweek IS a hellweek. Congratulations 35th Batch on officially becoming divers! HOOYAH!

Failed my 6Km timed run today for Frogmen Challenge! Noooo! That means I only passed one of the tests! Oh well. Least I managed to lose some weight I guess?

 

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Just had my virgin trip to Bangkok! Together with Reuben, Derick, Eric, ShaoYong, Matthew, Ling Chuan, Wenyi and Dino.
Things about Bangkok:
1. The drivers there are fanatics. You could lose your life anytime on the streets. Lol.
2. Stuff there is dirt cheap! Makes it kinda hard for you to actually control your spending over there.
3. ALOT of funny cheap stuff there as well. Bought a very real fake lizard. hahaha.
4. Need to learn some of their language when you go there!
5. Bring a pair of comfortable shoes for you to walk LONG hours in. The slippers there are shit.
6. To actually love their local food, you MUST be a Tau Ghey lover. Almost EVERY meal has them.
7. Never buy their Weed.
8. Bring Charcoal pills!
9. Beware of their uneven roads!
10. Try not to go with a girl. You'll die just walking into malls with her. This mall has like 7 levels and ALL 5 levels are for female stuff. 1 level for a joint collaboration of men and women clothing and 1 level for food, decorations and kids stuff.
and the list could go on.
11. Buy lazer pointers from made from Japan and not from China

Ironic thing was that I wanted to get the lazer pointer over there but I already had one at home so i figured i shouldn't waste money on it. Its like 250 SGD for the 5000mW okay! I can set things on fire! SO anyway, I didn't get one and when i got home, my brother told me that its spoilt.. AND I JUST GOT BACK FROM BANGKOK! NOOOOOOO! Shall wait for the next person to go over there. Which would be Jacintha, Dora and Michelle.
Shall end here since I'm so lazy. Bye!

the greatest moments of your life won't necessarily be the things that you do, they'll also be the things that happen to you.
I'm not saying you can't take action to affect the outcome of your life. You HAVE to take action but never forget that on any day, you can step out the front door, and your whole life can change forever.
You see, the universe has a plan and that plan is always in motion. A butterfly flaps its wings and it starts to rain. Its a scary thought but its also kind of wonderful, all these little parts of the machine constantly working, making sure you'll end up where exactly you're supposed to be exactly when you're supposed to be.
The right place at the right time.